So I've had a pretty tough week. Isabella was on a great schedule for about 2 weeks (she'd go down around 7:30, wake up to eat at around 3am, then sleep until 6 ish), then for no reason whatsoever, she started fighting her sleep at bedtime and would wake up at 2 and then every. hour. after. Andy and I were like zombies for 3 days straight. I couldn't focus at work and fell really behind on my paperwork. I was up to 3 cups of coffee just to make it through the day and was in tears before bed because I was terrified of what the night would bring. Last night was better, she only woke up once even though it took us almost an hour to get her to bed.
However, I hate feeling like Johnny Rain Cloud. All of this negative energy is really starting to get to me because I'm not usually like this. So I decided to bring a little sunshine into my life and talk about the things that I'm grateful for:
I'm very lucky to have a healthy baby. The no sleeping sucks but it could be a million times worse. I don't have to go to sleep tonight wondering if my baby is going to wake up in the morning. She has a full life ahead of her and that's what it all boils down to. She's not in and out of hospitals. She's home with people who love her.
I'm so blessed to have my mom watch her or Andy when he's off during the week. A lot of people have to either lose a salary and stay home or pay for daycare and I feel so lucky that I don't have to. I know her needs are being met and she's with people who care about her and would never hurt her. And the best part is it's free.
I'm grateful to have a job. So many people are losing theirs or getting pay cuts and we don't have to struggle at all. We don't live like rockstars, but we're comfortable and we're able to give back whenever we can.
I'm lucky Isabella is completely covered on both of our insurances. I hear horror stories about insurance bills and I don't have to worry about that. I paid a $200 hospital fee and that was it.
Sometimes I get down, which I've forgiven myself for, and sometimes I complain, which IMO is necessary sometimes because if I don't vent I eat and get fat and no one wants that, but I have a lot to be grateful for. I'm very blessed in many ways.
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What a super positive post! I needed this today.
Very blessed indeed. Sounds crazy, but enjoy this time (sleepless nights and all). It goes by sooo fast...
I love the healthy attitude you are taking toward your situation! Not sleeping much isn't fun at all though. I hope she's able to get back into a routine of sorts!
What a great attitude to have! It sounds like you got a lot going for you. Hang in there and grab a nap if you can! :)
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Good for you!! The lack of sleep really is hard thing, but as with everything with kids it will pass so quickly.
So keep hanging in there and keeping your good attitude and you will survive!
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WTG for finding things to be thankful for. I think you've inspired me to do the same!
This is so true! When I feel myself being negative Nancy I just think of my sister. The nights where Lillian won't go to sleep and fusses for 3 hours straight. My sister would KILL to have a baby and I have one. One who is healthy. We find out Wednesday if my other sister who is trying to be a surrogant is PG! Keep them in your prayers!!
You are very blessed my dear but that doesn't make life any easier right now. I hope that the sleep schedule gets better soon. I have three great friends who are all dealing with this same thing right now. It does get easier...I PROMISE. Enjoy every second you can be told this a million times but it does go by so very fast. Enjoy those night time feedings as a time to snuggle...you are going to miss it (not the waking up part...just the snuggle)
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