I mentioned in a post recently that I had a group of girlfriends that I was really close to but that I didn't have one best friend. I'm really close to my sister, but there are certain things I just can't talk about to her because she's kind of a "suck it up and get over it" kind of person, where as I can talk things to death. My cousin Christie and I used to be ridiculously close. We'd go out for drinks just the two of us, go shopping, and out to dinner, we'd talk on the phone a couple of times a week and I hate talking on the phone, but now we're not as close anymore. I don't really know why. It's not like we got into a fight. We just sort of fell away from each other I guess. I can't even blame Isabella because it happened before I was even pregnant.
On the cab ride into the city for my birthday night out. Two of my girlfriends were talking about what they were going to wear to their respective parties the next day (a Communion and a baby shower) and they were suggesting outfits for each other to wear. "Oh you should just wear the white pants" "Are you going to wear the wrap dress?" Then I realized, I don't think anyone knows what I have in my closet. No one would be able to help me decide what I wanted to wear. It's silly I know, but bear with me.
I've had best friends before. From grammar school straight through high school I had a best friend named Laura who was basically my conjoined twin. We shared everything. Our families were close; we spent every day together. As we got older and went to different colleges we just kind of went our separate ways.
When I started work as a teacher, one of my coworkers and I got super close. Kristy and I hit it off from the start and got really close. We've waxed and waned in our closeness over the past 5 years, but she would be the closest to a bff that I have right now.
It's odd, when you're growing up its guys that give you the most heartache, I find that now that I'm all grown up it's my friendships, or lack of, that gives me worries.