I posted recently about my mom getting diagnosed with early stage colon cancer. We got the pathology results back and it's looking like she's going to be needing 6 months of chemo. When I first found out, about 2 weeks ago, it felt like the breath had been knocked out of my life. Would she be sick? Would she be bed ridden? Would my vibrant mother fade away?
And on another, more selfish note, what would we do for child care? Day care plus the high cost of my commute is too expensive. I couldn't afford to take an entire year off. What are we going to do? So many questions, so many uncertainties. I could take a FMLA if I needed too for 12 weeks although that would cripple us financially.
Some good friends at work are trying to talk me off the ledge. I don't know how often she'll need to go to chemo or how it will affect her. I just don't know anything. I'm keeping my mouth shut in regards to work right now because it makes my head spin to think about it.
Thank God Andy has rotating days off so he can watch her a lot during the week and my sister offered to pitch in on her days off (monday and tuesday) and my in laws offered to make up the one day a week we were short, but I hate to have my baby girl shuttled and passed around. It could work for a few months but probably not indefinitely. I'm trying not to think that far ahead. I'm trying to focus my energy on my mom and being there for her. We go to the oncologist in a few days so hopefully I'll have some answers, or at least a better grasp of the situation, then.
As always, thank you for your continued prayers and support. Your comments, e-mails, and tweets have really helped to brighten my spirits and make me feel less alone.