Have you ever felt that you were falling apart at the seems? Like you were failing at everything that you tried to do? Sometimes I feel that way. Like I just can't keep it together. I feel like I'm failing my daughter because I'm not home with her, because I want to work. I actually really like my job. I feel like I'm failing my friends because I'm not the same as I was for them; I'm not as available. I feel like I'm failing my husband because I'm so drained at the end of the day that I don't have any energy left for him. The house isn't put together, I'm not put together.
I feel that even when I'm putting in 110% effort I'm still falling short in every area of my life. I'm not always such a sad sac. Somedays I rock this shit. But sometimes I just feel like my best is not even close to good enough.