I'm a working mom. I've written ad nauseum on the ups and downs of bringing home the bacon. Well, half the bacon. But for 10 glorious weeks each year (plus holidays and recesses) I get to stay home with Isabella. It really does give me the best of both worlds, but this summer was exponentially different than last summer.
Last summer my child was a screaming, sleep fighting, little blob who for the duration of her waking hours was hell bent on spitting up or pooping on me. This summer was way better. There was still screaming and sleep fighting but it was less annoying. Perhaps because it's way more infrequent and because she's like a billion times cuter. But it didn't all come up roses.
There were some days where I honestly thought I was going to lose my mind and I seriously considered moving her bedtime up from 7 pm to 3 pm in an attempt to keep the few marbles I have left. Some days she woke up early, napped quickly, tossed entire meals onto the floor, flipped out over every little thing. There were some days that I honestly didn't know how I would make it through. I was tired, angry, frustrated, and at a loss at what to do and what I had done to create such a monster.
But then there were days where she slept late, napped long, ate her veggies, played nicely, gave out tons of hugs and kisses, and soaked up all of our adventures. I wanted to bottle up those days; never let them go. I was completely present and completely happy in my life.
Most days were a mix of the two, with some highs and some lows. Now that I'm full throttle back into work I really miss the lazy mornings, playing with bubbles on the deck, swimming in the pool, evening walks and play dates. I'm not going to miss the tantrums, the diaper changes that required me to build up my upper arm strength to hold her down.
I love my job and I love my daughter so I'm glad I get to have both. I'm just upset that my mom isn't well enough to watch her yet. My sister is covering the days that Andy works but by November we'll need to look into part time day care. We're short 6 days a month and there's no other options. That I'm sure will need a post all on it's own.