Friday, September 17, 2010

My Stint As a Stay At Home Mom

I'm a working mom. I've written ad nauseum on the ups and downs of bringing home the bacon. Well, half the bacon. But for 10 glorious weeks each year (plus holidays and recesses) I get to stay home with Isabella. It really does give me the best of both worlds, but this summer was exponentially different than last summer.

Last summer my child was a screaming, sleep fighting, little blob who for the duration of her waking hours was hell bent on spitting up or pooping on me. This summer was way better. There was still screaming and sleep fighting but it was less annoying. Perhaps because it's way more infrequent and because she's like a billion times cuter. But it didn't all come up roses.

There were some days where I honestly thought I was going to lose my mind and I seriously considered moving her bedtime up from 7 pm to 3 pm in an attempt to keep the few marbles I have left. Some days she woke up early, napped quickly, tossed entire meals onto the floor, flipped out over every little thing. There were some days that I honestly didn't know how I would make it through. I was tired, angry, frustrated, and at a loss at what to do and what I had done to create such a monster.

But then there were days where she slept late, napped long, ate her veggies, played nicely, gave out tons of hugs and kisses, and soaked up all of our adventures. I wanted to bottle up those days; never let them go. I was completely present and completely happy in my life.

Most days were a mix of the two, with some highs and some lows. Now that I'm full throttle back into work I really miss the lazy mornings, playing with bubbles on the deck, swimming in the pool, evening walks and play dates. I'm not going to miss the tantrums, the diaper changes that required me to build up my upper arm strength to hold her down.

I love my job and I love my daughter so I'm glad I get to have both. I'm just upset that my mom isn't well enough to watch her yet. My sister is covering the days that Andy works but by November we'll need to look into part time day care. We're short 6 days a month and there's no other options. That I'm sure will need a post all on it's own.

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4 comments:

K A B L O O E Y said...

Not only a post but maybe, oh, a wee little change in our national policy? Reasonably priced available child care shouldn't be a pipe dream. Can I have your vote this November? Oh yeah. I'm not running for anything.
Glad to hear you had a more blissful balance this Summer.

Desi said...

First of all, I'm sorry to hear about your mom not being well enough to care for Isabella. Also, are you against daycare? or the price of daycare? In the upcoming months I'm going to have to put Liv in daycare at least part time also. So, I'm just curious what you think about it.

Nicole said...

I love this post. I used to work and have partial stints in the summer for my oldest now three. That only lasted a year and I decided to stay home. Shortly after I found out I was pregnant with number two and couldn't have been happier with my decision. Some days are a wreck but it's all worth it. I love having such a huge part in their lives and being their for them. I'm not against daycare but it was one of my biggest motivators to staying home. My only advice is do your research and that includes getting the numbers of other moms that take their kids to the daycare and ask if you're allowed to pop in at any time. If the provider always needs a time I'd be cautious. Also your state should have information online about the daycare. Good luck!

Lil'Misa said...

Great post because I feel the same way. I love being home with Carter but love working too. I don't miss the fighting for naps or the tantrums while at work but I do miss the hugs, snuggles and laughter.

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