Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Will Power

I had it.  After new years I was all about eating clean and only putting things that are pure and natural.  I exercised.  I detoxed.  I felt great and I was losing weight.  For a few weeks and then I fell right back into my old habits of eating marvelously during the week and then turning into a garbage disposal on the weekends.

I'm so mad at myself.  I'm so mad for letting the number on the scale creep up.  Even if it's just a pound, it's still a slippery slope.  I'm so tired of feeling fat, feeling like I can't wear half of the things in my closet, and feeling like the fat ugly duckling.

My friend was over this weekend and she stepped on my scale, fully clothed and in high heeled boots.  She almost had a heart attack because the scale said 126.6.  "I'm such a fatty" she said.  She didn't realize how close she came to being blinded.

My friend tell me I'm nuts and that I'm fine, but I don't feel fine.  I feel flubbery and rolly, especially around the middle.  Exercise is not the problem.  I work out 3-5 times a week.  It's the weekend snacking.  The candy when I have a free minute at work.  The eating out.  I know the problem and I know exactly how to solve it.  All I need to do is show restraint and will power.

Sounds easy enough, but then why is it so hard?
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6 comments:

Katie said...

I swear this is an impossible battle! At work I am surrounded by candy and treats. At home I try to do better but we like such rich foods! I keep trying...trying to eat better, trying to hit the gym, and it works...for 1/2 a week. If you figure it out let me know!

Elizabeth said...

I have the same problem. I love candy. And I also love McDonalds. Thank God I have to drive 25 minutes to the closest one...otherwise I'd be there all the time. Sometimes I bring raspberries to work, to help me avoid candy.

Nocturnal Queen said...

I would love to weigh 126 pounds! I never thought I'd want to weigh "that much", but now I do. I wish I could lose weight, but my PCOS won't let me. :-(

Alex said...

I hear you girl.. I'm trying to lose some weight and get back to the gym.. I'll let you know how that goes once I start :)

wonderfullyflo.com said...

Im all the way in England and its exactly the same for me...I think its a woman thing so just try not to worry about it...lifes too short and you look pretty beautiful from what I can see of your pictures :D

Wyletter said...

Melissa,
Thank you for stopping by my blog. I too go through periods where my eating and exercise routine is better than other times. I finally learned not to beat myself up when I do not stick to my routine. Honestly I find that I lose weight easier when I do not focus on it. I'm not sure why. It could be that I'm less like to eat comfort foods such as candy and ice cream when I'm relaxed. Good luck with your weight loss goal.
Wyletter

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