Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Staying at Home

For realz guys, I could never be a stay at home mom.  I'm sorry, I just couldn't do it.  All day every day running after this child has me half insane come 5pm.  It's a lot to plan out the days so that we're not just sitting inside going nuts.

It's a lot of planning, packing, coordinating, setting things up, mapquesting, and clock watching.  We go to a million places, the gym, the pool, the beach,  Sesame Place, play dates, zoos, aquariums, etcetera, etcetera, ad nauseum and it still seems like it's a long ass day to fill.  I try to limit TV, but sometimes I don't want to pretend I'm a puppy for 2 hours.  It doesn't help that my daughter will absolutely not play by herself at all.  It's so annoying.

I love my daughter and I love being a mom and I love the freedom of the summer, but if I had to be a sahm all day everyday I really think I'd go insane or be an alcoholic or both.

I think I'm good at staying home, but it's a really packed day all day long.  I like that I can wake up in the morning and sit and have coffee and not have to rush or sit in traffic, but when I'm working I can sit and get a break and talk to an adult without a little tiny person screaming "Mommy" over and over and over again.

Plus, I'm trying to get out of my parents house as often as I can and Andy has an obnoxious work schedule so I'm alone a lot which is boring and makes the day seem longer.  I'm just pissing and moaning a bit.  I love summer and getting to spend a lot of time with Isabella, just not full time.
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bailey j said...

I really think you are brave writing this in a way. I feel like almost EVERY mother feels this way but there is this stigma attached to admitting that you don't want to be on the go with your baby 24/7 but its totally normal! I can't even babysit without getting nutty.. I will need me time when I have babies, I just know it. It doesn't mean we love our kids less or more.. we are just honest. You rock!

Ariel @ Dreams To Do said...

Amen! & I have a daughter who DOES play well by herself! Ha!

Stefani said...

Can we sit down an have a cup of coffee one day??

Seriously... I'm in the middle of a draft of almost the EXACT same blog. Staying home with my daughter (3 in September) and my 10 week old has me literally pulling my hair out.

I'm so ready for the school year to start so I can get back to school and a schedule that makes sense to my brain.

Hang in there and know that you are SOOOOOOOO not alone.

Hugs and a glass of wine for you!! xoxo

Stefani said...

See, I wasn't kidding...

Tara Lotufo said...

This shows just how different everyone is. I have been home for almost 5 years come September and couldnt imagine going back until my kids are in school full time.
I taught too- JHS in Coney right now, I see it as spending time with my 2 little annoying kids rather than 120 of other peoples annoying. smelly, pimply, hormonal kids!! LOL. It is tons of planning, packing, washing, chasing, cleaning, insane moments...and as much as I complain- I truly love being home with them. I have no idea how you make it out of the house in the morning and give you TONS of credit for being able to do so. I can imagine work is a break of sorts- as funny as it sounds I know you understand!

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