Thursday, August 23, 2012

On Growing Older

Sometimes I still feel 16 years old.  I walked around on the beach with my 3 year old daughter, 34 year old husband, and 55+ parents and it felt like it could have easily been 15 years ago with my girlfriends checking out boys and rubbing our bodies with baby oil (gross right?).

But sometimes I really do feel  my age.

Like when I was at my cousin's 30th birthday party and I was cutting a rug, shaking my booty on the dance floor and the next day my knees hurt so bad that I had to ice them.  Sexy.

Sometimes no matter how much I sleep I'm still exhausted by 10 pm.

I need like 3 days notice to mentally prepare myself for a night away from my family.  Not because I love them so much, but because all of a sudden in my old age I have developed some social anxiety that I need to plan around.

And I'm getting these wicked lower back pains.  I stretch it out so much that Isabella can do my whole stretch routine from start to finish.

Also...sometimes I really look my age.

Like I'll catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I'm all, "What the mother fuck?"

For example, you could crawl into the bags under my eyes and hibernate for the winter.  True story.

The vericose and spider veins on my legs could easily be mistaken for a map of the Thames.  Isn't there something that can be done about that? Maybe some sort of vein sucking procedure.  I'll need to check with my derm.

I have sprouted a lovely pair of parenthesis around my mouth along with a weird dry patch on my foot.

My skin care routine has gone from soap and moisturizer to face wash, toner, under eye gel, under eye cream, and moisturizer with SPF.  Twice a day every day.  Yet I still manage to get a bit of acne from time to time, ya keep me young.

I'm not opposed to getting a little botox in the future if I need it.

All in all, I think I've held up fairly well.  I can see the bad decisions of my youth catching up with me: never using sun screen, smoking, not running unless I was being chased.  But it's also making me make a lot better decisions about my health and looks now.  Right now I'm trying to do a little damage control and not wind up looking like a leather purse by the time I'm 50.
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Danielle said...

AWESOME POST! #1. You look amazing, don't be so hard on yourself ;) #2. I feel your pain! Some days I get a glimpse of myself and do the minor freak out as well...we are women, I think it's only natural. Xoxo like I said previously, you look fabulous mama!

Jessica {Team Rasler} said...

I have that same wtf moment in the mirror myself every so often. My latest is all the wrinkles around my eyes whenever I smile. Hadn't realized they were there because I rarely smile at myself in the mirror. But they show up perfectly in photographs, let me tell you!

Oh well, with age comes wisdom, and I think we look far better than we think we do! Also, it helps not to hang out with 16-year-olds too often. I never felt so old as when I was with my younger cousin last month! ; )

copilotmom said...

I have those moments, too. Inside I don't feel any older, but my body tells me something different some days!

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