Thursday, October 4, 2012

The State of My Lady Bits

I haven't bled a drop of red in two days!  No cramping either, just a yellowish/brown discharge.  I'm going to the dr on Monday for an ultra sound and an appointment.  So I'll know for sure how things are progressing then and if they can give me some answers.  Honestly, if I didn't already know I was pregnant I would have just thought I had a very light, cramp free period.  It's bizarre.

As nervous as I've been since the bleeding started on Sunday morning, I'm still feeling hopeful.  I broke down and consulted Dr. Google and most of the posts and websites out there have very positive outcomes for bleeding, even red bleeding, in the first trimester.  Of course there were also many stories of loss as well.

In my gut I feel like things are going to work out this time.  Last time, I knew things wouldn't.  So today I'm still pregnant.  Today I still get to be excited about the life that is growing inside of me.  I still get to complain about morning sickness, heartburn, and exhaustion.

There's nothing I can do anyway.  No amount of bed rest, pelvic rest, water drinking, or anything is going to save this baby if it's not meant to be saved.  The human body is an amazing thing and all I can do is trust mine.  There's not much you can do to save a "bad" pregnancy and not much you can do to shake a "good" one.  All I can do is surrender to God, to the universe, to my body and hope and pray that things work out for me.

Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers.  It sounds odd but I can feel them and I think that's why I've had such peace during a time that is so tumultuous for Andy and I.  Keep them coming and again, thank you from the very bottom of my heart.
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Jo said...

Phew that is great news! I'm so glad to hear that the bleeding has stopped. Fingers crossed that you'll get the all clear from the doc on Monday.

Try to have a good weekend! (meaning as little stress as possible) x

mtendere said...

So happy to hear this. I know it's scary.

Stefani said...

I'm so happy to hear that things are looking up - my best friend (7 months pregnant now) had heavy, red bleeding at the start of her second pregnancy. The ER doc thought she was carrying twins and lost one but that turned out to be false. She bled on and off for her first trimester and then it stopped... I've been thinking about you a lot but haven't had any free time to comment - you're in my prayers still. Lovies to you my friend...

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