Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Thank God It's Over

2012 was a year of great highs, but also of jarring lows.  I'm glad to see it gone.  This year I conceived two children, but sadly miscarried the first, and while I'm grateful for Mrs. Petrillo's kicks and thumps, I would have ended 2012 with a newborn and that still stings.

This year we sold our townhouse; the house we had turned into a home.  We lived there as newlyweds as we navigated the hurdles facing a young couple just starting out, finding a way to merge our two separate lives, and finances, into one.  We welcomed a daughter in that house and filled it with memories.  We also filled it with a ton of crap that needed more room to grow.

For six long months we lived with my parents.  I thought it might break us and towards the end I think nearly everyone in the house was feeling a bit broken.  It was just too much for too long.  I craved my own space that I could keep organized and clutter free.  I longed to be able to parent without my father hurtling a million questions at me or trying to act as Isabella's parent himself.  I was sick of watching my mother just sit on the couch day after day instead of just talking about what is bothering her.  She never will.  I just couldn't take it anymore.  So I was ready when it was time to move out.

Always a blessing to be the
mom to this beautiful girl
We bought a beautiful new home this year, with space and promise and room to groove and really make it our own.  However, this house is old and it's fast turning into the money pit.  You go to fix one thing and discover three more problems.  Everything has cost twice as much as anticipated and taken twice as long to finish.  For my type A personality it's been a really difficult time.

My marriage started the year off stronger than ever, married to my best friend and we're ending the year off, still in love, but very strained.  Money woes, house trouble, transitions, and pregnancy have all taken their toll and I'm feeling the distance.  We're working on it, but it's more work now than it's been in a long time.

It's been a tumultuous year and I'm not sad to see it go.  I am, however, very excited for all that 2013 will bring.

6 comments:

bailey j said...

Here's to a much better 2013! Later, 2012. Happy New Year!

torinelson said...

Sometimes the best part of an experience is when it's done and over. You got through a tough, tough year. Nothing but good things from here on out! Wishing you a brilliant and better 2013!

Madonna said...

It will get better. After having a second baby in a two-bedroom house that was already small for the three of us, it has definitely added stress to our relationship. But every relationship takes work, we are getting rid of stuff as we prepare to move to our next house, and I am catching up on all the drinking I couldn't do while pregnant to make it through the tougher of the days. Happy 2013 to you!

The Dose of Reality said...

That is A LOT of stress for one year. Here is hoping that 2013 brings you all the joy you want! :)

Heathers Happenings said...

Here is to an amazing 2013!

Ariel @ Dreams To Do said...

Wow, that puts my rough year to shame. So sorry about your VERY lame 2011! Thank God it's over! My hubby and I went through a rocky patch this summer and it was not fun. BUT, we made it through... when I almost thought we couldn't. And now, we are stronger than ever with a renewed love for eachother. So, just hang in there. Don't let the external circumstances put pressure on your marriage. Sending happy thoughts and positive vibes your way for an AWESOME 2013!

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