Breast feeding was something that I've always felt strongly about. I'm not a fanatic by any means, but I knew it was an avenue I wanted to explore when I was first pregnant with Isabella. It wasn't as natural and beautiful as I imagined it would be, but then again nothing was.
I struggled with low supply, but in hindsight I really kind of jumped the gun on formula and pumping. I think the real issue was lack of support. All my husband knew was that the baby was crying and I was miserable. My mother, who didn't breast feed us, was constantly saying things like, "How do you know how much she's getting?" "Aren't you worried she's not getting enough?" I was a brand new mom and scared to death I was starving my child.
It was a huge source of my anxiety and depression after Isabella was born. Why couldn't I make enough milk? Why did I hate pumping so badly? Why did I have to supplement with formula? I felt like a complete failure. I realize now, with my 20/20 hindsight boobie vision that I was just unprepared, inexperienced, and ill equiped.
I really thought breastfeeding would be natural and just come to me, so I didn't prepare myself. Now, I know better. So I'm all signed up for a breast feeding class at the hospital, with Andy so he can support me better and I just bought the book The Motherly Art of Breast Feeding and the first chapter already pissed me off because it made me feel like the only way to breastfeed effectively is to co-sleep, which is just not for me. However, I'm going to keep reading since it came highly recommended from a lot of women.
With Isabella I was able to accomplish a mix of breast feeding, formula feeding, and pumping (God how I loathed pumping), but she stopped receiving breast milk at around 3 or 4 months. I'm hoping to exclusively breast feed for at least 6 months this time around. But I'm not going in with that attitude that it's the be all and end all of motherhood. I'm going to arm myself with knowledge and set a goal, but I'm also going to be kind to myself.
Do you have any breast feeding tips and tricks or resources that you think would be helpful? Also is breastfeeding one word or two? When I spell it as one it comes up underlined in that angry red, but when I google it as two it corrects it as one. For the sake of this post I just did both.