Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Breastfeeding: Love It/Hate It

So we're about 2 months into this nursing thing and I have to say that there are things about it that I love and there are things about it that I really just can't stand.  I also have to admit that at least once a day I completely feel like giving it up.

Love

I love that it's free.  It's saving us a pretty decent amount of money that we don't have to buy formula, I don't remember how much we spent on it when Isabella was little, but I know it was a pretty decent amount if you didn't have coupons or sales.  This extra cash is coming in handy because, I'm not sure if I mentioned it, but a lightening hit a tree in our backyard and it cost us $2,500 to remove that tree and the two surrounding it...ah the money pit.

I love that it's convenient.  No fussing with measuring, pouring, sterilizing, or cleaning bottles.  There's no heating up milk in the middle of the night, I just pick up my shirt and I'm good to go.  I never have to worry about packing enough bottles and if we're out and about and want to make an extra stop it's no big deal because I have the food supply with me.

I love that I'm the only one that can fulfill this need.  I was never Isabella's favorite.  I'm still not.  I think I might just become Arya's favorite because I'm the milk machine...or maybe not, we'll have to see.

I love that no matter what the issue, she can always sooth when I nurse her.

I love that it's the best for her health and has some benefits for me too.

Hate

I hate it for most of the same reasons that I love it.

I hate that I'm the only one who can do it.  Doesn't matter if I want to sleep in an extra hour or that I'm tired in the middle of the night.  Doesn't matter if Andy is ready and willing to take a feeding.  I have to feed her.  I know that I could give her a bottle, but it seems like such a fuss and then I'd have to pump anyway which I hate.

My nipples get so sore and raw from her incessant cluster feeding.  She uses me as a pacifier which is annoying as well.  I tried to give her a paci and she just screams and looks insulted.  I'm worried how she'll soothe herself when I'm at work.

I shared my body with her for 9 months.  I didn't drink, fretted over the amount of caffeine I was imbibing, slowed down my exercising.  Now that I've had her I'm anxious to have my body back but I still have to worry about teetotaling, coffee, spicy food, and everything else that I eat.  I just want to be able to eat and drink whatever I want whenever I want.

So for all the reasons that I hate it, I still, mostly, really enjoy it.  My main goal is to get to 6 months and then if we're going well at that point I'll try to make it to 9 and then maybe to a year.  When I say to myself that I'm going to do it for a year it seems daunting, so I stick with my mini-goals.  I just try to remember that it's just one snapshot of her life and it won't last forever.

4 comments:

Lina said...

hey mama, i clicked through to your post and I'm an LC and just wanted to let you - you CAN eat and drink what you want. Most of the food sensitivities (like spicy things and gas causing) are wives tales and drinking while nursing is totally fine (not to excess, but legal limit is perfectly safe). So eat and drink to hearts content!

If you notice something in particular bothers her, then you could try cutting it out, but i've nursed 3 littles myself thus far and never had any sort of special diet :) In fact, studies have been done that show the more varied your diet is with spices and things, the better palate she will have as a big girl :)

Leslie said...

I’m with you on pretty much all of these reasons! We just passed the one year mark, and I’m desperately trying to wean…but our little one still wants to suck on things which means lots and lots of bottles. Definitely looking forward to when I can have a glass of wine without worrying about if/when I need to nurse for bedtime!

Melissa G. said...

That puts my mind at ease. I feel like there's so much information to sort through.

Melissa G. said...

That's so great you made it to a year! Way to go mama. Unfortunately I have no weaning advice but when that time comes for me you'll have to let me know.

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