Monday, September 16, 2013

The First Week Back

I just completed my first full week back at work after nearly four months home.  It's kind of a mixed bag for me.

On one hand, I really like being back in a routine.  I like the structure and flow that comes with knowing how you're day is going to go.  I'm glad to get a break from changing diapers and being able to see my friends at work each day, even if we're all frazzled and stressed.

On the other hand, I really miss the girls while I'm away all day long.  I wonder how they are and what they are doing.  I miss being able to nurse the baby in bed to catch a few extra zzzzz's in the morning.  I hate pumping.  I pump like four times a day and each time I hate it a little bit more.  I also feel like there's no time for anything.  I mean I felt that way while I was home all summer too, but now it's like extra true.  I get home from work and Arya wants to nurse immediately, she usually nods off a bit and while I love the sweet baby cuddles, I know I have to start dinner, get Isabella set up for school, make lunches, do laundry etc.  Andy and my mom step up a ton, but I miss playing with Isabella after she gets home from school and I can talk Andy through making dinner, but I love to be in my own kitchen.

I have zero time to clean or exercise.  Now that I'm back to work I'm thinking of having our cleaning lady come back in.  Andy is really fighting it on me because his M.O is to plead poverty for everything, but when it comes to my sanity you can't put a price on that.  I can't figure out when to exercise.

I'm also pretty sick of waking up once or twice a night with Arya.  And it never fails that she wakes up at like 4:30 every night when I have to get up at 5:30.  It's like a brutal tease.  If she could just start sleeping through the night I'd be ever so appreciative.

I know that I'll find my groove.  I know that things will naturally fall by the wayside and get picked up again later when there's time.  All in all it was an OK first week.  I still need to find my rhythm as a working mom of two and I know I need to really make sure I'm on top of all the papers that come home each day in Isabella's folder.  C'est la vie.


Louise@FitRadiance said...

I know how bad it feels going back to work even after a weeks holiday, never mind four months! :p It definitely takes a while to get back into the swing of things, must be tough with kids especially. Wishing you a great week! :)

Nicole Nenninger said...

I consider myself lucky in that I was able to stay at home with my three girls, but sometimes I secretly wished for a career too so I could have structure, use my brain, have more spending money, and a time with grown-ups! I lost my mom at 7 so I vowed I'd be there for my kids, but I think it's important for a woman to have work or something outside of just her kids. said...

Going back to work is simply the hardest thing ever. Hang in there, it does get easier.

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