Monday, December 29, 2014

Sales for your Resolutions

Fitness has kind of become the forefront of my life. I fell in love with Beachbody products after completing P90x3 and went on to complete Focus T25, two rounds of the 21 Day Fix, and I'm halfway through with PiYo. So much so that I signed up to be a coach which basically means I help people reach their fitness goals. 

Its resolution season (yay!) which also coincides with financial hangover season (womp womp) so I'm here to ease your burden. This sale gives you $20 back instantly via PayPal. Sweet! 

Or you can join me in my awesomeness and be a coach like me. No need to be a fitness expert...just the willingness to share your love of a product that works. 

The truth of the matter is that I don't need to be a coach. I make a decent salary and Andy makes double what I make. The extra income is nice (pays for my shakes, paid for Christmas in cash) but it's not about that. I love watching people hit milestones they never thought they'd hit. I love my the people in my challenge group rallying to help each other. I love the quality of the products. I love that it helped me to lose and keep off 30 lbs! 

Want to take advantage of either of these offers...visit me at or email me at 

Sunday, December 28, 2014


I don't want to set resolutions because 92% of resolutions fail. Last year I set out to make health and fitness a priority, which I accomplished by losing, and keeping off, 30lbs. So I already have the tools but what I need to focus on is maximizing them. 

So here are my goals for 2015: 

1.  I want 2 abs. I like beer and bread too much for a 6 pack, but I could get down with a twofer. 

2.  I want to grow my beach body business. Being a coach has been such a blessing. My team is like a big family. I want to work on growing that team by adding more coaches. 

3.  I want to complain less. I complain about traffic, about messes, about the kids driving me nuts. I want to work on being kinder, softer, more positive, more present. 

So that's what I want 2015 to look like. What are your big goals for the new year? 

Thursday, December 25, 2014

The Merriest of Christmases

I have to say that this was one of the best christmas celebrations and Christmas season that I can remember. Isabella and Arya were so good and so excited. It's been so wonderful to watch their excitement and watch them play and get to spend so much time with our families. 

Truly blessed! 

Merry Christmas to you and yours! 

Monday, December 22, 2014

iPhone Mommy

I'm addicted to my iPhone.  It's sad.  What's worse is my justification for it.  It's not like I spend all my time on it just perusing facebook, instagram and whatnot, although that is a big part of it, things with my Beachbody coaching biz are booming and I'm answering e-mails, checking in with clients, posting to facebook groups etc.  I love being a Beachbody coach, I'm hoping there comes a time when I can do it full time, but now is not that time, so I'm left juggling a full time job, 2 kids, a husband, and a household and all I can do is get sucked into my phone.

It makes me feel pretty shitty.  Because, you see, deep in my heart I know I need to put the damn phone down and have a face-to-face conversation with my husband.  I need to leave the phone upstairs so I can play a game of Candy Land undistracted.  I need to splash with Arya in the bath instead of playing Candy Crush.

It makes me feel like a terrible mother.  I don't want to be the iPhone mommy.  I want to be engaged and present and aware, but it's like a demon that sucks me in.  I give it to much power and fall into my excuses and reasons and justifications.  I know it's bad.  I know it's a problem and I know I'm going to stop it because everyone in this family deserves a full time mommy.

I also know that saying something without a plan is bullshit so here is my plan on how to limit use of the iPhone while still working a business that I love:

  • Take 5 minutes before I come into the house after work to get to any pressing matters that I couldn't get to while working/commuting.
  • Put the phone in another room from the time I get home to the time the kids are in bed.
  • Take 30 minutes after bedtime to write/post/respond to challengers then put the phone in another room
  • Right before bed take 5 minutes to answer any other e-mails or check in to accountability groups
  • On the weekends check my phone (for business or pleasure) only while drinking my coffee and the kids are playing.  
That's my right now plan.  Not my New Year's resolution.  Not my fresh start on Monday.  Right now.  Today.  

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Find Ways How To Easily Relax at Home

     When you are a mom, everything is on your shoulders. You need to take of your family, your home, and the pets that everybody loves and kisses but only you clean after them… You are doing it all, and you still need to look nice, cook food and meet your husband with the smile on your face after work. Though it is amazing to have a family and people you really care about, sometimes you might care about them so much that you forget the most important person – yourself. Don’t you sometimes catch yourself, staring at the mirror and realizing that you can’t remember the last time you did something for yourself?

     Do not say that this is what comes with motherhood. Nobody says that it is easy to be a mother, but you should not forget yourself and what you need too. Just because you are a mother, it does not mean that everything is only your responsibility. I know what you are going to say right now. You are going to say that you do not have time to go to spas or yoga to relax because without you, everything would probably fall apart. You are going to say that you are the only person that makes your home livable, because everyone else has school work and meetings at work all the time.
     But not everything has to be so difficult because you can simply relax and find piece at home. Meditation and simple every day stretching, as weird as it might seem, can help you to relax even without leaving the home. Use an overstock coupon to buy a nice and comfortable yoga mat to feel the full comfort. When you will feel the need to stretch a little bit more after spending half of the day in the kitchen, you can buy stretching straps for a much lower price with overstock discount deals, so that your muscles would not be that tense after a long day. You are not a robot that can do work all day, think about your health too!
     You do not need to spend a lot of money buying gym memberships, because let’s be honest, you will not go there as much as you try to promise yourself. These simple, but effective ways will help you to relax as well as will make your body feel so much better! And after you will feel the need to move a little bit more, you can use the constant overstock online coupons that are on the website to buy some more complicated equipment that is still suitable for home (your husband will love it too!).

     Do not ever forget yourself and your needs. You are not just a mother, but a woman too, and you need to do something for yourself as well. Spas, gyms, beauty centers might be expensive and time consuming, but with such things as overstock promo code it will be much more affordable to do something for yourself without having to sacrifice too much. 

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Sunday, December 14, 2014

Fitness Rules

There's a lot of information on fitness out there. A lot. I'm not an expert or a doctor however, I am someone who has studied and researched and found a system that works. So here are the main "rules" or truth's that I've found to be the cornerstones for success.

1.  Drink Water

It sounds easy enough but it's amazing how many people are dehydrated. You should be drinking half your body weight in ounces, meaning a 140lb woman should be drinking 70 ounces of water each day. Drink a glass of water as soon as you wake up and before each meal. You'll consume 20% less calories if you do. The brain also confuses hunger with thirst, so if you're feeling extra pecking, try drinking a glass of water before feeding your cravings. 

2.  Eat Real Food 

Low fat this, sugar free that, things that crinkle in their packaging just screams PROCESSED. I used to eat 100 calorie packs and mini weight watchers cakes like they were going out of style because I thought they were acceptable as long as I had the calories for them. But if I ask myself, "is eating this going to make me healthier?" the answer would be no. Eat foods that are as minimally processed if at all. Fruits, veggies, whole grains, lean proteins, dark chocolate. You'll feel better and fuller longer. 

3.  Get Moving 

I feel like sometimes were conditioned to think that taking the stairs or parking far away is good enough and it's not. You need to get your body moving. I'm talking at least 30 minutes of activity 4-6 times a week. It's not impossible. You can run, weight train, do yoga, take a Zumba class, or do at home workout dvd's like me. Get rid of excuses like "I don't have the time, energy, or money" just find a way to make it work. 

4.  Cut The Sugar 

Eating too much sugar is, in my opinion, an epidemic. Your body can't process sugar so it stores it as fat, namely belly fat. It can be as addictive as narcotics and serves no purpose other than empty calories. Time to ditch the soda and candy bar habit stat. 

5. Get Support 

Most people want to lose weight or tone up or get healthy so you are most certainly not alone. It's great to have a support system of like minded people who are dealing with similar struggles. It can be on an app such as My Fitness Pal, in a beachbody accountability group on facebook, a group of friends meeting up once a week, weight watchers meetings, or an online forum. Use each other as resources and for support. 

6. Cook Your Own Food 

I know there are a lot more healthy options available in restaurants and takeout places now than there used to be and I'm all about enjoying a dinner out  however unless you cook it yourself you don't really know what's in it. Preparing your own meals at least 5 times per week can really help you stay on track. Make extra and take for leftovers or to grab in a pinch.

7. Mind Your Serving Sizes 

Most people have no idea about the correct serving sizes. I didn't either until I actually started measuring things. Here is what your serving sizes should look like 

Fruits and veggies - 1 cup 
Proteins- 3/4 cup
Whole grains- 1/2 cup
Healthy fats/cheese - 1/4 cup 

8. Ditch the Monday Mentality 

If you have a mid week or weekend slip up don't just give up and eat everything in sight with the idea that you can just start fresh on Monday. You'll consume hundreds of extra calories and turn a small hiccup into huge gains. Start right away. You'll feel better. 

9. Get Enough Sleep 
Sleep is your body's chance to heal itself, to recouperate. It's so important that you let your body rest, especially if you're exercising. I know it's difficult, especially if your kids wake you up early like mine do. But you can maximize your sleep by going to bed earlier, keeping your bedroom cool and dark, and not having anything caffeinated before bed.

10.  Enjoy in Moderation 

Life is too short to never enjoy the foods that we love, like cupcakes, wine, lasagna, or a bowl of ice cream. There's no reason you can't enjoy your favorite foods in moderation. There's a big difference between a bowl of ice cream and a pint of ice cream. I always strive for 80/20 this way I don't feel deprived and I can stay on track without feeling like I can NEVER treat myself. I always have 1 cheat meal per week and 1 cheat snack. Make it a choice to indulge. 

Many people have no idea how good their body was meant to feel when it has proper rest, nutrition, and exercise. If you need help I would be more than happy to be your coach. You can email me at or sign up for your FREE beach body account at 

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Hot Mess Mama

We've all had those moments right? The moments where we are H.A.M's (Hot Ass Messes). Whelp I had a pretty big one this past weekend and it was, in actuality, very far from pretty. 

Andy and I were planning on leaving Arya with my parents to take Isabella to visit A Very Furry Christmas at Sesame Place. Since I am such a hot mess I couldn't get my shit together enough to get her a Christmas shirt or outfit or something so I put her in an Elsa shirt and hoped she wouldn't freak out when she saw that her cousins were in their holiday shirts. Elsa is a bad ass snow queen and snow is in winter and Christmas is in winter. It all goes together. 

Then since she's wearing an Elsa shirt she needs a side braid. So, with my limited hair doing skills, I manage to give her an Elsaesque braid. We're in the car 30 seconds before the braid is half out and there are about a hundred fly away hairs despite the fact that I doused her head in hairspray. It's all so tragic. 

I tell her that I'll just throw it in a regular pony tail, but now she's pissed that her hair won't match her shirt. So now that we're already running 20 minutes late because we just can not get it together whenever we have to go somewhere we decide to go to Target because they will definitely have a Christmas shirt...Target has everything. You think we'd learn to set up better the night before but 5.5 years of parenthood and we still haven't figured out how to get out of the house on time. we're in Target and they have holiday shirts for babies, for boys, and for dogs but none for girls sized 5/6. Of course not! As we hustle to the car I realize that we left our season passes at home. Back in the car for another 10 minutes and we're now 40 minutes behind schedule. 

I'm sitting in the car flustered and balled up and I look around and there's barely enough room for my purse that's stuffed full of Kleenex and snacks because there's just kid crap everywhere and I've been meaning to clean out the car but my to do list is already so long and who wants to clean out their car in the cold anyway? 

So we get to Sesame Place on time, shocking I know, and the day goes off without a hitch. No meltdowns about the lack of Christmas shirt or inappropriate hair braids. Until it was time to leave...but that's another story. 

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Make Ahead Egg Muffins

I am a H.A.M in the mornings...a Hot Ass Mess.  I can barely get myself out the door, let alone fed.  Now usually I have my Shakeology for breakfast because it's so easy to grab and go, but one cannot live on superfoods alone, so I've started making these eggs in a muffin tin.

They're super easy and super delicious and I have to make like 24 a week because my husband and both girls love them.  I just make them, portion them out in zip lock bags, put them in the fridge and then reheat for about 30 seconds in the microwave.  Easy peazy.


Non stick cooking spray
4 large eggs
8 large egg whites
1/4 cup mushrooms chopped
1/4 cup bell peppers chopped
1/2 cup shredded cheese (optional)
salt and pepper to taste


1.  Pre-heat oven to 350
2.  Line a muffin tin with cupcake wrappers and/or spray with non-stick cooking spray.
3.  Mix the eggs and egg whites together, stir in chopped mushrooms and bell peppers, mix in cheese if using.
4.  Spread evenly among the muffin tin 
5.  Bake for 25-30 minutes or until golden brown

Makes 8-12 muffins
Serving size: 2 muffins 

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

The Bully

Isabella loves school.  She loves her teacher.  She loves to learn.  She loves her friend.  What she does NOT like is the bully who sits at her table.

Lately she's been complaining about a kid who sits next to her...let's call him Fred.  So Fred has been pretty much harassing the people at his table.  He's called them losers, tattle tales, said he wouldn't be their friend if they told on him, and he even made up a song about a little boy that made him cry.  I tried to tell Isabella to ignore him, to tell him to stop, and to tell her teacher.  She wouldn't because she didn't want Fred to be upset with her.  She's kind and passive to a fault.

So I e-mailed the teacher and explained the situation and she changed Isabella's seat.

Well the next day Isabella comes home and says that Fred PUNCHED her in the stomach on the playground.  Punched.  In the stomach.  On the playground.

She was so sad because she didn't understand how her good friend could hurt her.  I wanted to tell her that her "friend" is a little tool, but I decided that it would be wiser to just tell her to stay away from him.  I also told her that if he hits her again to hit him back.  I don't care what your stance on that piece of advice is, I want my daughter to be able to defend herself.

I had a very long phone conversation with the teacher about Fred, Isabella, Fred's parents, and the situation.  She seemed like she was all on board with it and was calling his parents and informing the lunch aides of the situation.  We spoke for a long time and I felt good about the conversation.

Apparently whatever she said to Fred's parents really made an impact because there hasn't been another peep out of Isabella's mouth about Fred since.  I've followed up with the teacher and she hasn't seen any misbehavior in the class since.

See what happens when parents take responsibility and hold their children accountable for their action instead of becoming defensive and entitled?  Changes are made.

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Cross Roads

I've been blogging here at Completely Eclipsed since I was about 15 weeks pregnant with Isabella.  You're talking almost 6 years!  That's a long ass time in the blogosphere.  I'm kind of at a crossroads with my writing, and have been for a little while.

I just don't know what else to say.  My passions are shifting.  My interests diverting.  I still love blogging, but motherhood isn't as dark and twisty for me as it used to be.  I've hit my stride, and while I stumble and fall, I know how to pick myself back up.

In all honesty, the thing in my life that I'm most inspired by right now is fitness.  I had initially said that I wanted to keep the focus of this blog on my life and my kids, but to be honest, that's not all that interesting right now and I've noticed my blog numbers consistently going down (yes I do check even though some article somewhere says I'm not supposed to).  It's easy to see why.  I haven't been engaging with readers because I'm just not all that interested in what I'm writing.

So I'm reevaluating my stance.  If nutrition, health, and fitness are my passion then I'm going to write about that.  There's no rule that says I can't switch niche's mid-stride just like there's no one forcing you to keep reading something that you're not interested in.

I don't want to give up the blog, but I don't want to pour energy into something that doesn't hold a lot of joy for me right now.  So I'm going to give it what I've got while I've got it and just kind of see where it leads.

Monday, October 20, 2014

Halloween Party (Kiddie Version)

Andy and I always host an adult Halloween party because Halloween is like our high holy time and we just love it!  So we figured that in addition to both working full time, having two children, one who is in both dance and gymnastics and another one who is a tiny terrorist, plus planning an adult Halloween party that we had just enough room on our overflowing plates for a kids Halloween party too (which is why there has been radio silence on this blog for a week).

I'm so glad we did it!  It was so much fun.  I invited all of Isabella's new friends from Kindergarten and I'm glad I got to meet the other mothers since I'm never able to drop off or pick up.

We ate:  

Spooky sandwiches (6 ft hero for the adults)
Dead man fingers (french fries)
Poison Punch
Chicken Gizzards (nuggets)
Cursed Crudite (veggies)

We played:

Lim-boo (Oriental Trading)
Pin-the-nose on the Jack-o-Lantern (Amazon)
Monster Sac racing (Party City)

Gotta love Halloween!

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

#21DayFix Review

So last week I completed my 21 Day Fix and I have to say that I was more than happy with the results!

Basically the 21 DF is a three week program that zones in on clean eating and portion control using these easy to use color coded tupperware.  It also has 30 minute exercise programs to help rev up your metabolism and burn calories.

The Workouts

Day 1: Total Body Cardio (cardio with weights)
Day 2: Upper (sculpts and tones those arms)
Day 3: Lower (also incorporates weights for maximum calorie burn)
Day 4: Pilates (really focuses on your core)
Day 5: Cardio (burns fat)
Day 6:  Dirty 30 (my favorite!  Total body sculpting)
Day 7: Yoga (stretch out those tired muscles)

Plus: 10 minute fix for abs for days you're really running short
Bonus:  Plyo Fix (get jumping)

The workout all came with a modifier and I loved that not all the people in the videos had cookie cutter bodies, all body types were represented.

The Containers

Green: Veggies
Purple: Fruits
Red: Protein
Yellow: Starches and Carbs
Blue: cheese/healthy fats/nuts
Orange: dressings

How It Works

You use some magical formula in the user guide to figure out how many calories you're allotted for the day and then that gives you the number of each container.  I had 3 greens, 2 purples, 4 reds, 2 yellows, one blue, two oranges, and 2 tsp.  I thought I would be starving, but it was a lot of food!

You're able to swap out a yellow for a treat (wine, chocolate, etc) three times a week...I might have cheated just a drop in the wine department!  I also had my coffee every day.

My Thoughts

I love this program.  It taught me a lot about my eating habits.  For example, I had a really hard time eating enough protein.  I struggled with that a lot.  I was also eating way too many sweets.  I didn't realize how often I was nibbling on sweets until they were severely restricted from my diet.

Biggest Challenge

The hardest thing for me was the planning.  I'm a meal planner, always have been, but it took me a week to get used to trying to tick off each food group in my meal planning.

Biggest Reward

I hit my goal weight in the second week and seriously toned up.

My Results

I lost 5.5 lbs and 5 inches.

If you want any information on the 21 Day Fix shoot me an e-mail at or visit me at

Why You're Special

Dear My First Born Child,

You're special.  You were the one who made me a mother.  The one who terrified me with how delicate you were and how fierce my love could be.  You were the one who taught me the meaning of the words "exhausted" and "worried".  I took pictures of everything you did and every outfit you wore.  You were the baby I spent hours researching about.  I wanted to do everything just perfect.  I spent close to $30 in pacifiers just to try to find one you would like (I never did).  You were the one who had me crying tears of frustration because you just would. not. sleep.  You're the one who took my breath away with every milestone.  Your first step, first word, first birthday party.  All of it was new and wondrous and exciting and scary.  There's something special about your first baby.

Dear My Second Born Child,

By the time you came around I was a seasoned mother, well versed in the art of "tired" and "freaked out."  I was way more relaxed about motherhood because I knew that as long as I loved you things would all fall into place.  Whereas your older sibling ate dinner at the table at meal times and only watched very limited educational TV shows, we tend to just throw food at you at random times during the day and you have your own Netflix account.  You also never got to be the only baby in our house, you've always had to share our time and our love, but trust me, little one, there's plenty to go around.  You're special because you taught me to slow down, how not to rush from one milestone to the next, but to really savor your sweet baby smell and the sound of your stomping toddler feet and your great big belly laugh.  You're special because you're my last little baby and I want to hold onto you for just as long as you'll let me.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Parent Society

 Come on and read all about the wonderous things going on in my dark and twisty mind over at Parent Society.

15 Reasons Why You're the Meanest Mom Ever - I bet you've been a big meanie!

What You Lose When You Become a Mom - It's not what you think swearsies.

I've been having a bit of writer's block as of late, but I'm trying to push through it.  What do my fellow writers do when there's not a lot to say?

Tuesday, September 30, 2014


If I could describe myself in one word it would most definitely be AWKWARD.  You might not know it to look at me or if you interacted with me, but inside I am a hot mess of awkward energy.  This becomes abundantly clear when I have to do something outside of my comfort going to a PTA meeting.

I have terrible social anxiety.  BUT I'm totally willing to put that shit aside if I think pushing my boundaries will help my kids.  So I joined the PTA.  I know right?  So not my thing.  But I did it anyway so I can be involved in her school and know what's going on.  I'm always scared I'm going to get lost or not know where to go or that someone will talk to me and I'll have to keep on the conversation or that no one will talk to me and I'll be sitting there like a big dumb dummy.

It really wasn't that bad.  I was a little awkward, but I pushed through.  I even made a somewhat friend, or at least someone to keep me from looking like a big dumb dummy.

Then I had to go to back to school night alone...curses on Andy's midnight schedule.  It's just hard for me to break into groups where the women already know each other.  Either from growing up together in this neighborhood or having older siblings already in school together.  I didn't grow up here and to say that the women in this neighborhood are very, ummm, different from the women in the neighborhood where I grew up is an understatement.

Back home in Brooklyn, at least when I lived there, were a little more real and down to earth and a lot less materialistic.  We moved here for the neighborhood, but it's just a very different vibe.  Plus a lot of the mothers are much much much older.  Like where you have to kind of scratch your head wondering if they're the kid's mother or grandmother.  Not that there's anything wrong with that I'm just wondering how much we'll have in common.

I'm also pushing my limits by inviting Isabella's classmates to a Halloween party that I'm hosting.  My friends at work nearly crapped their pants when I told them I was doing this because I generally panic at the thought of talking to strangers.  But Isabella is going to be in school with these kids for years, so I want to make sure I'm at least quasi friendly with the moms so she gets invited to play dates and stuff.

Oh the things we do for our kids.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Back in the Swing of Things

I've written a lot about how rough this summer has been for me, with Andy's work schedule and Arya's incessant nursing.  But now that I'm back to work I'm in a much better space.  Sad as it may be I have to admit that I am a much happier person and a much more relaxed mother when I'm working.

Getting dressed and out of the house each day is something that I know that I need.  Some days with the little witch this summer that just wasn't possible.  I come home and even though I'm stressed about work and frazzled from the commute, once I'm here I'm here.  I'm attentive and I like to play.  We make dinner and do homework and have dance parties and do crafts.

I have my little routine back.  Come home play, make dinner, do baths and bedtime, workout, watch TV with Andy.  I look forward to my weekends at home and my time off.

Some women were meant to stay at home and I give them all the credit in the world.

And some women were meant to work and I also give them all the credit in the world.

Tuesday, September 23, 2014


I can now officially say that Arya is weaned.  I haven't nursed her in over a week.  It's been a lot easier than I anticipated.  She's asked a few times, but I just tell her that she's a big girl and try to redirect her.  Even at night she's been so good without nursing to sleep or having her bottle.  Such a big girl!  She even started sleeping through the night.  It only took 16 months, but better late than never.

I was a little emo at first, what with that being my last physical connection to her and that being my last baby to nurse, but its been for the best.  She's eating more, sleeping better, and our bond is just as strong.

I officially have my body 100% back to myself.  It's freeing and a little bit sad at the same time.  It's like the end of my baby era.

No more boobies for this beast!

Thursday, September 18, 2014

21 Day Fix

So I'm putting my Focus T25 on a three week hiatus while I try out the 21 Day Fix.  I've been really excited to try this program because it really targets nutrition and portion control with 30 minute workout routines.

So basically you get a set of DVD's with 9 workouts.  Most are 30 minutes long but there is a 10 minute ab fix.  You also get a detailed eating plan that focuses around these little tupperware containers, which is good because I could eat a mountain of food if left unchecked.

Based on my weight I get to eat:

3 greens (veggies)
4 red (protein)
2 purple (fruits)
2 yellow (starches/carbs)
1 blue (cheese/hummus/nuts/etc)
1 orange (oil/seeds)
2 tsp (nut butters)

You can drink tea and coffee (no fatty creams or syrups) and wine and treats are ok (3x's a week and you swap it out for a yellow...bummer because I love my yellow)

I thought I'd be super starving and hungry and grumpy because I love to snack and eat cheese and have sweets, but I'm actually keeping really full.  I'm still craving sweets, but I'm just starting and they say it takes 21 Days to break a habit.

My Focus T25 challenge group is going strong and I'm starting a 21DF one on September 29th, so I'd say the beachbody coaching thing is going pretty good so far!

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Surviving September

September has me nearly ripping my hair out.  I thrive on the routine, structure, and adult conversation that going back to work brings BUT let's not forget that my full time job involves me being around a whole lot of kids most of the day.  Kids will eat your brains...or at least turn them into mush.

September is a crazy month as everyone slides back into their routines and adjusts.  As an extra add on bonus, Isabella is in Kindergarten which comes with meetings and homework and deadlines and a whole bunch of papers to sort through every single day.

My job in September is a verifiable crap storm.  I'm trying to acclimate 30 3rd graders who spent their summer forgetting everything they learned in 2nd grade.  I'm trying to get bulletin boards up, beginning of the year assessments graded, and answering a million silly questions a day (when I get to the bottom of my notebook page, should I turn the page?).

Plus trying to figure out how my workouts are fitting in (usually after bedtime) and getting Isabella back and forth to gymnastics and dance class.  Poor Arya doesn't have much in the way of goings on around here.  Although she does make everything interesting.

How are you surviving your September?

Monday, September 15, 2014

My Last Drop

Since I've been back at work I've really decided to put my foot down when it comes to weaning.  Basically the entire month of August Arya has had her head attached to my boob.  I was starting to resent her because it was just getting to be too much.  Too much physically, emotionally, and mentally. It was affecting me from spending time with Isabella because Arya was always wanting to nurse, plus she wasn't eating as much because she was just filling up on milk.

Now I know that the World Health Organization recommends nursing until 2, but I was ready to stop.  So once I went back to work after summer vacation it just seemed like the most logical time to stop.  She doesn't get bottles anymore, so when I would get home from work she would run to me on her chubby little legs and say "Nurse."  It was hard to tell her no because she's so innocent and sweet and I know it makes her so happy, but I swallowed my mommy guilt and just tried to redirect her.  It worked better than I thought.  There were a few tears and a few protests, but for the most part she was ok.

At this point we were down to just one nursing session per day.  Just the night time feeding.  Andy and I have been toying with ideas on when and how to drop it, since we're both pretty much terrified of Arya's sleeping habits (if you can call what she does sleep).  This week is a really busy week for me.  Parent-Teacher Conference (mine), PTA meeting (Isabella's), work happy hour, a birthday play (I hate weeks like this where there's something every single day!) so I won't be home for bedtime a few night, so we're thinking that this is the time to do it.

I nursed her to sleep tonight.  It was, more than likely (I never commit to anything) the last time.  I thought I would be relieved, and a part of me was, but there's also a slight sense of grief.

I will never nurse Arya again.  I will never nurse a baby again.  This part of my life is over.

I am no longer supporting Arya with my body.  With my heart yes, with my arms, yes, but not physically.  It's my last connection to babies and this era of childhood.  I'm so glad that I was able to do this for so long and that I was able to have this bond with her.  16 months, I nursed that baby for, and tonight I dripped my last drop.

I read an article called The Last Drop that summed it up in a way that I just can't.

Monday, September 8, 2014

Setting Goals

I've been thinking and reading about goal setting and I think it's important to set clear goals and think about the steps you need to take to achieve those goals.  And while this may not be so super interesting to you, I think it's good for me to get it down on paper.


1.  I'd like to transfer my blog from blogger to wordpress.  I plan on doing this by saving up the money I earn from writing to have someone make the switch.

2.  Write about more aspects of my life- pushing the limits and not writing about just what is "safe" or will get me the least amount of backlash.


1.  I'd really like to take my beachbody coaching to the next level.  I can do this by continuing to share my fitness journey.  Trying to run challenge groups and inviting people to try the products.  This is hard for me because I have massive social anxiety, even social media anxiety, but I'm really trying to hard to come out of my comfort zone because this is important to me.

2.  I'd like to become an Emerald Coach.  This means that I would have to sign two coaches myself.  Again, hard for me because I'm not very forthcoming.


1.  I'd like to start decorating my house the way I want.  I'll probably have to wait until Arya stops painting things with her yogurt.

2.  Calming the fuck down- I get really balled up and stressed out and I need to find a way to access some inner peace.

What are your goals?

Thursday, September 4, 2014

We Survived Kindergarten

What, what!  Isabella's first day of school was a total success.  She made three friends, she played outside, she loves her gym teacher, she made a craft, they read a story, a little girl tried to push in front of her on line, Isabella pushed her back, then they sat together at lunch.  Fun times!

She likes her teacher, so far none of the kids are fresh, and she got to eat lunch in the big cafeteria with the BIG kids (1st and 2nd graders).

If anyone needs me I'll be buried under a giant pile of paperwork.  Apparently kindergarteners require a lot of paperwork!

Please excuse the grainy cell phone picture, my mom took it and she's  kind of a dumb ass when it comes to these things.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

The Night Before Kindergarten

Tomorrow is Isabella's first day of Kindergarten!  I know I said that I was ready and that I wasn't upset about this milestone, and I'm not, BUT tonight when I was tucking her into bed I did get a little emotional about the significance of this journey.

I'm not an emotional person when it comes to things like this.  I don't cry when packing up newborn clothes or lament the passing of bottles.  But this one got me a little bit.

Because she's big.  Because she's ready.  Because she's one step further away from me.  One step closer towards independence.  Because I'm a little bit worried.

There's such a fire and spark inside her.  She's so curious and loving and headstrong.  I hope she has a teacher who fans those flames and doesn't diminish it.  I hope she corrects her gently and encourages her creativity.  I hope she pays special attention to my girl, who is so quiet sometimes and so good that she can fade into the background.  I hope her teacher lets her shine bright.  You a diamond.

I can't wait to hear all about her first day!  Hope all your kiddos are having a smooth transition back to school.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Summing Up Summer

Summer 2014 has been kind of a mixed bag for me.  I love the freedom and easy going nature of summer, not having to rush around in traffic or set up my breakfast/lunch/coffee the night before.  I like having the days free to do what I want with my littles.  However, it was also extremely difficult with Andy working all the time because Arya is at the age where, although she's a lot of fun and her personality is exploding, she's into everything and everything she's into is deadly.  For example, eating rocks, climbing on the coffee table, using her step stool to try and dance on the window sill.  Crazy stuff.

I felt like I didn't do as much as I normally do in the summer time because it's just so much work to make sure she's not getting into something she shouldn't and still keep an eye on Isabella.  I also feel like I didn't have people over as much this year because she's still all about the nursing and why bother inviting people over so they can watch me chase around my baby?

There have been times of super our vacation to Ocean City and trips to Sesame Place and big family BBQ's and evening dance parties.

There have been times of annoyance...chasing Arya around the pool so she doesn't fall in the deep end because she will not under any circumstance sit in her tube thingy that I bought her, nursing all morning because it's the only thing that keeps her happy when she's teething, following her up and down the ladder of the play set in our backyard because she doesn't want to go on the baby one.

And there have been times of extreme sadness and when Andy worked 6 straight overtimes in a row when Arya was cutting her back molar.  When I was so frazzled and so sad to keep the girls inside for a few days because I just couldn't muster up the energy to take them somewhere.

It's been a summer of happiness, guilt, loneliness, frustration, silliness, and peace.  Next summer Arya will be 2 so it should be easier in some respects, but harder in others.

I'm sad to be going back to work, but I thrive in that structure so once I hit my stride I know I'll be fine.

How was your summer?

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Gazillion Bubble Show Giveaway

What kid doesn't absolutely adore bubbles?  I know mine do, so I'm super stoked to be hosting a giveaway to the Gazillion Bubble Show at New World Stages in NYC.

The Gazillion Bubble Show is an amazing family show that will blow your mind.  You'll step into an interactive bubble world with lasers, special lighting effects, and amazing bubble artistry.  It truly is something to be seen.  The run time of the show is about 1 hour and does not have an intermission so it's perfect for antsy little ones.  

I took Isabella a few years ago and I'm so excited to be taking her again. 

You can purchase tickets to the Gazillion Bubble Show by clicking HERE or you can win your own right here.  

One lucky reader will receive a voucher for TWO free tickets to see the show on select days/times through September 30th 2014.  

The winner will have 48 hours to respond before a new winner is chosen.

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*I was given two free tickets to the show*

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

I'll Be Nursing Forever

I'm not even kidding.  I will surely be nursing this child forever.  Or maybe even longer.  Some days I swear to high heaven that she nurses more than a newborn.  It's not out of hunger, she eats breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks.  Or out of thirst, she drinks water from a sippy cup no problem.  She nurses for comfort.

I love that I've been able to provide that comfort to her, I really do, but honestly I am so done with nursing.  Arya is 15 months old.  I really think I've done a wonderful job nursing her, but breastfeeding is a two way street and I'm really ready to stop.

Problem is that she's not.

I've been googling ways to wean gently, because I don't want to traumatize the kid, and everything just seems to say, distract her or give her cuddles or just gradually drop a feeding.  The problem is, there's no distraction for her.  She screams her bloody head off, gets herself into a nursing position and yells "nurse, nurse".  She gets herself really worked up...real tears and everything.

I really don't know what to do.  I've considered seeing if she'll take a pacifier (she's never used one before), since that is essentially what she's using me as.  But then I think that I don't even know if she'll take one and if that's just replacing one habit with another.

I also googled when do kids self-wean and most things that I've read seem to say between 2 and 3.  I think I would ugly cry if I knew I had to breastfeed her that much longer.

I can't hide my boobs.  They're just there.  I feel guilty because I know she loves it more than anything and I really wouldn't mind if it was just twice a day (morning and night), but it's all the time.

Any tips?  Suggestions?  Commiserations?

Thursday, August 21, 2014

A Challenge

So I know you all know that recently I became a beachbody coach you also know that I did this after falling in love with the products...namely Shakeology and P90X3.  I wrote about them long before I became a coach.

I'd like to keep the focus of this blog on what it's always been, but this is a new part of my life that I'm pretty jazzed up about.  However, this will probably be my last Team Beachbody related post for a while because I don't want to be annoying/in-your-face/drink-my-shakes-bitch.  But I do want to let you know where I'm at if you're interested in following that journey.

Here's my new fitpage: Completely Fit (keeping with the theme there).  Like me if you'd like.

If you want me as your coach (free) you can sign up for a Beachbody account (free) by visiting me at

Starting September 2nd (so we can get back on track after Labor Day weekend) I'm hosting a challenge group for women only.  We'll be doing Shaun T's Focus T 25 which is perfect because it's 25 minutes and that's about all I have time for in my day.  If you want more information about that just shoot me an e-mail (

And that's all I have to say about that.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

I'm Not Upset About Kindergarten

I'm just not.  I've seen various articles and status updates around the interwebz lately from mothers lamenting the start of kindergarten.

I get it.  It's a milestone.  You worry.  Will the teacher be nice?  Will they make friends?  Will they feel comfortable?  Will they succeed?

I look at Isabella sometimes and I worry about all of those things too.  I don't want her to feel nervous or out of place or sad.  But then I look harder and I know.  I know that she is ready for this next step.  I know that she's ready for kindergarten.

She thrives on the structure and stimulation of school.  She loves to make friends and she's so super smart.  She can even read a little bit on her own.  She's ready.

Maybe it's because she was in school full time last year for Pre-K 4, so I'm already used to it and so is she.  Maybe it's because I know that she's more than prepared and more than capable.

So while I understand this is a milestone.  I'm not worried.  At least not for her.

Who I am worried about is me.  These are the parents and kids I'm going to be stuck with until junior high school and even then I'll probably still be stuck with them.  The neighborhood I live in is peppered with uppity families who think who they are and that's just not me.  I don't want to be stuck with a bunch of douchey parents for the rest of my life.  I also worry about getting all of the school notices filled out properly when they get sent home.  And having to miss everything because I'm working.

Looks like I need to calm my nerves a bit.  Bring on kindergarten!

Monday, August 18, 2014

Ocean City 2015

We just got back from another wonderful vacation in Ocean City New Jersey.  We've gone every year since Isabella was one year old and it's always a trip I look forward to.  There's something about being at the beach every day without having to worry about making dinner or doing laundry or cleaning the house.  Even though we rent a house, it's different when it's not your own.  No nothing, just waves, sand, boardwalk, and delicious food.

I actually would have to say that this was my favorite trip so far.  Arya was so good.  She loved to just run around on the beach chasing birds.  She laughed at the waves and let them crash over her feet.  She loved to dig in the sand.  It was so fun to watch her experience the beach like she couldn't last year because she was just a wee baby.

It was also really nice with Isabella because she got to stay up late and go on the boardwalk to play games, go on rides, and play mini golf.

It was such an awesome trip.  I was so sad to leave and am already looking forward to next year.

Monday, August 11, 2014

Out of My Comfort Zone

I did something recently that was leaps and bounds out of my comfort zone.  I signed up to be a Beach Body coach.  This isn't a post about that.  It's a post about the terrifying, paralyzing fear that came after. I created a fit page on facebook to try and connect with people who might be interested in working with me to get healthy and fit.  I invited my friends and family and coworkers to "like" it.  I put up before and after pictures.

Immediately after I did that I felt like I wanted to throw up.

What would people think of me?  Would they make fun of me?  Maybe they'd be sitting around the table at dinner with their friends laughing about me.  Did you see that page Melissa made?  Is she really trying to sell stuff?

Then there's my own fears.  Will I fail?  Why should someone trust me to be their coach?  No one is ever going to be in my challenge groups.  

It's all fear.  Fear, fear, and more fear.  I'm scared to fail.  I'm scared of judgment. I'm just scared.

But this is something that I feel strongly about.  Sure the coach discount is nice, but the products work and I know I can help people if I let go of the fear that is always holding me back.

I was so very very close to just being like forget it and deleting everything, but I promised myself that I would try it for at least three months and if it doesn't work out, then it doesn't work out.  But at least I'll know I tried.

Friday, August 8, 2014

Shakeology Sampler Giveaway

If you're following me on Facebook you know that I recently became a Beach Body coach (more on that in an upcoming post).  I want the focus of my blog to stay what it's always been about, me meandering through motherhood and complaining about being tired, that's what you really love to read about right??? But I am really excited (nervous, terrified) about this new section in my life, so I'm going to host one Beach Body related giveaway and then I probably won't really mention it again except as it pertains to my day-to-day life.

From the website:

Shakeology® is the most delicious, nutrient-dense, superfood-packed protein 
shake on the planet. It’s made with the healthy stuff you should be eating 
every day, but typically don’t. Shakeology’s the perfect combination of proteins, 
phytonutrients, antioxidants, enzymes, prebiotics, and probiotics. Plus, it also 
contains many rare ingredients, including adaptogens, camu-camu, and maca 
root—things we can’t get from an ordinary diet. So whether you use Shakeology 
for weight loss, or drink it to optimize your health, this powerful  
and delicious shake is Your Daily Dose of Dense Nutrition®. 

I love my Shakeology, but it's a big commitment if you're not certain what flavor you like.  It comes in chocolate, vanilla, greenberry, strawberry, vegan chocolate, and vegan tropical strawberry.  There are a ton of ways to prepare it too.  My favorite is with almond milk, peanut butter, and a frozen banana.  Yum!  So I'm giving away a sampler pack to one of my lovely readers.  

The sampler contains 4 single serving packets of Shakeology (vanilla, chocolate, strawberry, and greenberry).  

Once a winner is chosen they will have 48 hours to confirm before a new winner is chosen.  Good luck!

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